Who You Were Meant to Be

"God doesn't give you the people you want. He gives you the people you need. To help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you and to make you into the person you were meant to be."

I’ve got a gift and it blew me away

THE GIFT | ANGELS & AIRWAVES



There's the strangest excitement today
If you're awake then you're welcome to hear
I got a gift and it blew me away
From the far eastern sea, straight to here

Oh god, I feel like I'm in for it now
It's like the rush has gone straight to my brain
God my voice is lonely as loud
As I whipser the joy of this pain

And suddenly
You've done it all
You've won me over
In no time at all

And now, I'll stop the storm if it rains
I'll light up a path far from here
I'll make your fear melt away
And the world we know disappear

If you ask i will do what you say
All we have is this night to get though
With the taste of the smile you're only
You left me all up in arms and confused

Oh god, i feel like I'm in for it now
And how this kiss will be one, roughly vague.
I swear I'll melt if you touch me at all
And then I'll ask you to do it again and again

And suddenly
You've done it all
You've won me over
In no time at all

And now, I'll stop the storm if it rains
I'll light up a path far from here
I'll make your fear melt away
And the world that we know disappear

Thank you, friend. <3

I waited for you today
But you didn't show
No no no
I needed You today
So where did You go?
You told me to call
Said You'd be there
And though I haven't seen You
Are You still there?

I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel You by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone

And though I cannot see You
And I can't explain why
Such a deep, deep reassurance
You've placed in my life

We cannot separate
'Cause You're part of me
And though You're invisible
I'll trust the unseen

I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel You by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone

We cannot separate
You're part of me
And though You're invisible
I'll trust the unseen

I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel You by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone

Structure

Lately I've kinda been feeling like I've been living life aimlessly. Because I work from home (or, Starbucks, rather, since that's where I usually go to write), my schedule is pretty flexible. I don't have to answer to anyone. I'm not used to living without structure.

Structure has always been what's motivated me. In high school, my life revolved around my school schedule, the next assignment that was due, what TV show was on that night that I knew I wanted to watch.

I don't even watch TV anymore, except for the occasional episode of Gossip Girl that I just stream online, anyway, and which I watch at my own convenience.

I don't even know what date it is anymore. This past Friday was January 30th, but for some reason I thought it was the 31st and so when I signed the key form for the new UW club venue, I dated it wrong. I didn't realize it until the next day when I looked at my phone and saw that Saturday was the 31st.

My life is like one big blur. Every Sabbath, the one day of my week with structure, people always ask me, "How was your week?" And honestly, I don't know how to answer them. I know most of them are just being polite and may not genuinely care to know how my week went, but when I think about the answer, I don't know what to say.

My weeks aren't bad, but they're so full of random events and meetings that I can't recall what I did have the time. I usually answer them, "Oh you know. Same ol', same ol'."

I don't even know what the point of this blog is. I don't know if I dislike the lack of structure my life has, or whether it's freeing.

It's just an observation, I guess.